'Stop cutting' 'you're being selfish' 'think about everyone around you' people say over and over, although they have no idea what my head tells me. It's so easy to pick up a blade and relapse. Trying to stay clean is possibly the hardest thing in the world. I'm so bad at the moment. I can say sorry time and time again but that does not mean I will stop. I just want to go back in time and stop everything shit that's happened in my life. Or. I could just, go to sleep forever to end the pain right?